Sunday, January 11, 2009
Sponge
"You know its like the way sponges work. They can't absorb more/that much if they are already half filled, whereas there would be a clean slate to begin with if the sponges in question are brand new." So that brings us to the million dollar question, that one about a glass of water and if it is half full or half empty. I guess the common perception will be more inclined towards the former, because we're all secret sunshine beams inside. (:
Xinran is an interesting "specimen", indeed.
Less than 24 hrs to school reopening and I don't feel one jolt. Well, perhaps 2008 was too much of a neutralising acid. Hm.
Growing up where we begin;
"The richest man is not the one who has the most, but the one who needs the least." - from kyna's hot chocolate pps email. How timely a reminder... No, I will not get sucked into that vicious cycle and grow into someone I
don't want and will never dream of being, simply because my conscience does not permit it.
I falter, I cry, I struggle hard and flounder miserably when I recklessly plunge myself into some challenge or another I overestimate myself to be able to handle. But I'd have faith that maybe all this is predestined fate, that everything happens for a reason - that I make choices on the spur of the moment for a reason perhaps as yet unbeknownst but for a reason. For a reason that will make good eventually. Life may deal you the unhappy cards, and at all the low points of your life you feel like scrunching up, burst into tears and simply walk away. But if we continue to keep seeking out a path most comfortable for ourselves and a path where we will never have to struggle, we will never learn, would we. Or at least "learn" as in learn the hard way, as I did at the hands of a bloodsucker professor. After all, what doesn't kill you only makes you grow stronger. And it's up to the individual to make sure that things don't kill you - there should be adequate 'strength from within' to compensate for that in which case. Right.
No, that does not mean I'm suddenly in love with the environment I'm placed in and the environment I thought myself to be able to adapt to and survive in. Fat chance. But surprisingly enough maybe I detest the school more than the programme. The fish in front of the city pond, haha...transliteration 1o1. In any case, N and F have been godsends. Especially F! :-)
Not that it has really been the shit Pandora's box all the way I guess. I've learnt to be more assertive, more confident (ha), and more sure of what I want. Ironically after seeing for myself repeatedly what it is that I absolutely don't want. Reverse psychology, perhaps. But still, 寻根！
soldiers of silence; carriers of faith
Maybe it's time to be more independent and ironically enough, learn to be more... self-protective.
tagged by qiaowei and valerie
1.Who is the person who tagged you?
qiaowei! valerie!
2.The relationship between you and her/him?
both sec2 classmates! :D:D everything has come full circle, indeed. :)
3.Your 5 impressions of her/him?
qiaowei- sweet! xiaotiantian! friendly! straightforward? has a great sense of justice! haha my transliteration sucks, apparently.
valerie- fun! trustworthy!:D likes to shop! warm! friendly!
4.If she/he becomes your enemy, you will?
not possible for both, i believe. :)
although the same cant be said for some of qiaowei's friends, but ANYWAY. :D
5.What will you say to the person whom you like very much?
no valerie i dont think you are a coward, i think its just a "girl" thing to not act upon their crushes... unlike guys. which is a wise and sensible decision for us since that may often end up embarrassing both parties involved instead. haha. yeah i'd just ignore it and act normal until the heart palpitations die off haha.
6.The characteristic(s) you love about yourself is... ?
my values and my beliefs that mould and shape me into the person i'm today :D
7.The characteristic(s) you hate about yourself is... ?
physique ): and height ohmygosh.
8.For the person whom you hate the most, you say...?
If I'm to let my anger get the better of me, I'd say to hell with you. But since I'm such a nice, civilised and reformed girl I'd just say that I'd been exceedingly disappointed by you. And you'd continue to be, I believe... Ah.
9.What do people feel about you?
quiet, hardworking (yeah right), driven (-_- people give me too much credit hai), bad at math (as is half my class!), daring, reckless, impulsive, adventurous, responsible (i hope), weird fangirling, philosophical (?)
10.Who do you have a crush on?
ALICE CULLEN! Robert Pattison too, to a certain extent :D
11.The most ideal person you want to be is... ?
sheila
12.Pass on this quiz to 5 people:
1. kyna
2. tricia
3. charis
4. karene
5. sophia
13.If no.2 & no.3 were together, what will happen?
haha, i know! tricia will just bombard charis with her typical triciaish conversations. haha see i'm psychic :D
14.What colour does no.1 like?
red and black :D
15.Say something about no.3.
love always, sec4 classmate, club mate, history sia! haha ny history...boiled eggs and cooked milo haha. and chinese love stories!
16.Who is no.2?
tricia leong haha little miss neat freak
17.Talk about no.5.
sophia, love always, sec4 classmate, huangcheng08!, er did we do projects together... dont think so right. oh, once for la in sec4 on gm food. and 3 day deskpartner in 07term3, 2weeks deskpartner before olvls :)
18.Who is no.1?
kyna ng! do i need to say more :D
19.Who is the sexiest person amongst them?
yes val i so agree with you haha kyna must be dying to see her name here. well there you go :D
20.Is no.4 single?
hmm are you karene! haha maybe karene is secretly dating wuyuetian (:
21.What is your relationship with no.1?
sec2 classmate, love always and always!
22. Are no.1 & no.3 good friends?
nope they dont know each other
23.What is no.5's surname?
lim
24.What is no.1's nickname?
avriladdict (haha even if thats part of history's lingering bruises!), kynang, sexybabe haha
25.What things do you wish to say to no.3?
keep the faith? haha i dont know... ah. stop associating me with any fields -_-
26.What will you do to help no.5?
haha lend her my book on china in the hope that it'd be of use to her for her csc lunwen
27.Who does no.1 admire?
hmm jacob black? haha..
28.Where does no.1 live?
kembangan... a whole island away from me
29.Does the 5 of them know who you like?
I suppose so. Charis and Karene might not know about my fangirlism on Alice though. teamAlice! <3
30.What do you wish to say when you see no.1?
haha yes i know i owe you 2bucks val... hmm hello SEXXYBABE have you gotten rid of your act macho voice! ahh kyna are you happy :)
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Alright finally cleared. Time to clear cca+homework backlog now! Ahoy there and hi Florence :)
